Babies and driving in the rain

Yesterday, my new niece was born! My little sister, Katie, had her second child. She has a little boy, and yesterday, she had a little girl- they are calling her Stella. I didn’t know if I would be able to see her in the hospital, or when I would get to meet the baby. I did my usual and didn’t promise anything, because I never know how I will feel in advance. I don’t have a lot of good days, but lately I had had a couple of better ones (it’s all relative!). This little girl had been prayed for and hoped for, for a long time! I knew yesterday morning that there was nothing short of a tornado, that could keep me away.

I called and let my sweet, brave sister know that I would be able to come see her! It was raining and sleeting some, and the hospital was about 40 minutes away. That’s farther than I have driven in at least a year. Well, there’s nothing in the world I love more than newborns, so I had some incentive!


Here we are!!!! My hair turned to frizz in the rain, but that is a genuinely elated smile! I savored her soft, fuzzy hair, warm little weight in my arms, and her gentle inhale and exhale. I cannot have any more children, but that just means that I get to love on other people’s babies even more! Katie looked beautiful and so relaxed.

I called James during the day, and pulled the car over. We facetimed and I was in tears. He immediately asked what was wrong. I said, “nothing, I just drove a car!”. Pretty simple, but the pure joy of it brought me to tears. I had to stop and thank God, right there on the side of the road. Again, and again I said prayers of thanks. Not that long ago (ok, even some last week) I didn’t know if I would ever feel well enough to drive myself around. I never took big things for granted, like my loving family, my health, and the roof over my head. It was the little tiny things- like driving a car, or being able to say “yes I will be there”- those simple, small things, I used to take for granted. Now I don’t.

When I got home last night, I told James that when I was standing on the maternity floor, waiting for them to open the door that led to the hallway with patient rooms…I got a familiar feeling. It’s the same feeling I get when I enter some churches and chapels- one of awe. I feel God. It blasts me in the face when I walk onto the hospital hallway- all of those new little souls, fresh and wonderful, each one of them. The world has been waiting to meet them for approximately nine months. Each hospital room has one, maybe two, lives that were meant to be from the beginning of time. They are precious, and yesterday, I got to appreciate that.

4 thoughts on “Babies and driving in the rain

  1. Debbie

    Hello Amy,
    My name is Debbie and I’ve been suffering for 17 years with Pudendal neuralgia and pelvic floor dysfunction. I too had the shots by Dr. Jarnagin in Franklin Tennessee. My procedure was done on December 11,2017. I’m a lot like you in fact your story sounds like mine only I’m still in pain. However, I was also diagnosed with interstitial cystitis while I was there with a cystoscope with hydrodilation and also Dr. Barry did remove scar tissue from the vaginal area from a failed vulva vestibulectomy that I had. I was wondering how many shots did you get? I did get the Botox as well. I’m so upset. I’m still on all my medication and tomorrow I’m going for a nerve block. Any advice from you would be great. Thank you Deb.


    1. Debbie, the shots take 6-8 weeks to start working at all. You still have time! They aren’t a complete fix for some people, but they can be part of a combo of things that help you. Don’t give up. Please check back in with me sometime. I’d love to hear how you are doing! Take care.


    2. How are you feeling today Debbie? Do you have a good physical therapist? I find that they are very helpful and can answer medical questions, as well as some medical docs.


      1. Debbie

        Hello Amy,
        When I returned to Dr. Barry in January because I had problems in the past that the dissolvable stitches never dissolved and we thought that may be going on again, because the pain in that area was very severe and my fiancé said he saw 2 stitches left. So, the office wanted me to move my post op appointment up and fly down as soon as I could. Well, I’m the mean time I took several sits baths a day with epsom salt. The stitches did dissolve and Dr. Barry was very happy with the progress and said I didn’t need physical therapy. However, being that I use to work as a physical therapist I know in order to prevent scar tissue from growing back and keeping the muscles from tightening up again you have to go to physical therapy. I have an appointment with my physical therapist on the 6th. I just am hoping the pain I’m feeling is more to do with my bladder and the area that was cut. I’m a little skeptical though because when I had my nerve block the other day I was pain free again as usual. I’m scheduled for another block on the 12. I’ll let you know how it all goes. I did go into Manhattan to see a urogynecologist cause it’s become too expensive to keep going to Tennessee as much as I love Dr. Barry and Tennessee living on disability is very hard when there are so many bills to pay. This doctor in Manhattan used a catheter on me and drained over a cup of urine after I had already gone to the bathroom 2 times already while being there. I’m not so sure about this doctor. I’ll have to see. You normally get a gut feeling about doctors. He wants to perform a test on me in March with use of a catheter again. I’m very fearful of them cause they flare me up. He also was questioning Dr. Barry’s diagnosis of interstitial cystitis which I find really puzzling since he had the notes of the cystoscope with hydrodilation. So, I will keep you informed. I admire you for coming off all the pain medication. They change you as a person. Mentally, physically and emotionally. I really need to find help because I want off of these horrible medications. God bless you and thank you for replying. Debbie.


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